(how) do i reconcile

“i can’t stop trying to look for ways to do this faster.”
“i keep expecting it to get more fragile as i take more risks, but it’s not.”
“the bigger it gets, the longer it takes to make changes to the pattern that you can notice.”
“i cannot seem to find a position or posture to do this without pain.”
“this cannot be touched and handled in the same way as other knitting.”

“i can’t stop trying to look for ways to do this faster.”
“i keep expecting it to get more fragile as i take more risks, but it’s not.”
“the bigger it gets, the longer it takes to make changes to the pattern that you can notice.”
“i cannot seem to find a position or posture to do this without pain.”
“this cannot be touched and handled in the same way as other knitting.”